Resulting to texting? Lame! However new Eggs!

I went to class... I left at the end... of course conviently at the same moment that he left. Of course. However I chickened out... and didn't talk to him. At the stop of stairs just when I'm about to tell him... to spill all of my guts. Then at the top of the stairs there is this girl waiting for him.

Exchange
"____ cuddly bear" (or something like that!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

"I can't believe your here...." he says....
(They go to hug and I quickly depart)

*groan* Honestly who is this girl and why do I care. So I mummble and groan... and then I decided that i can't take it so I send this text..... Of course it takes forever until he answers, which I understand.



Text sent: I know this is the most wimpiest way on the face of the planet... I just suck at the whole feeling crap stuff. Look I'm sorry for acting crazy and being wierd. Just when I like a boy I push him away. Anyway I just wanted to say I apologize. If you ever want to do something I'd love to.

Text received: You haven't been acting crazy, I thought I was the one being distance. Sorry if I've made you feel that way. I would love to do something sometime.

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Hoestly why do boys lie? Why couldn't he just not answer if he's not interested? Why did he have to let me get my hopes up? Anyway I'm just glad I got to express some of my feelings. However i really wanted to text him and ask why he had been distant. ... Who knows. I guess I'm just not his type, which sucks but I'll get over it. He can be happy with his new girl....

And now that I have fianlly put myself out there, I feel so much better! Honestly I'm still hurt and feeling "not good enough" but I honestly feel better. I'm actually excited about my potentials. Hooray for new eggs! And hooray that I really, honestly and truely feel better. Now I don't have to keep stressing.

He made the choice to be distant.... whether it's from me acting out... plus other stuff. I've come to realize.... I just needed closure. (However that text wasn't very good for closure.) I finally realized... he doesn't like me and there is nothing I can do about it. So the only way to move is up.

And hooray that now I feel like moving on.... I'm so excited for the dance tomorrow. Can't wait to search for more eggs!