Chips and Dip... and I'm the Dip....

This week the boy who wants to marry me came and visited.... Ug! I'm so confused! I'm not ready to get marrihied. Why does life have to be so confusing. He is so sweet and good to me. Let... I don't know what I want or how I feel. I haven't even kissed the guy yet. How did eveything become so confusing?

I've known Chip for a year now. A little bit over.... He joined the military a little bit after he met me. We met through a friend. She came down to meet her boy toy (her now husband) and brought him along. He was actually suppose to meet another girl and go on a date with her but when he met me he told her he didn't want to meet her friend.

It all started when She called to ask me if she could spend the night in my college dorm appartment. When she came to drop off her stuff that night, he was with her. We ended up going to the dance and then we went back to her apartment.... So I cuddled with him and then wef hung out the next day. It's interesting. I was worried... but then I decided it would be nothing. So I didn''t worry about it. But then Chip wanted to come and visit me all the time... during the weekends... and all sorts of stuff. then he went to his military camp stuff. He's been gone since Febuary... for about six months. And now he's back.

He got bakc just before the start of school.... It all seems so unreal. We had been talking phone calls and such. I could tell.... Well before he left he asked me if there was any possibility that we could get married. Get marreid.... ???? We hadn't even dated seriously. How can.....

I'm sooooooooooooo confused!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! What should I do??????????????????? Uggggg!! Don't ask me. I don't even have the slightest idea.

He's someone who i would want to marry.... But is he the one? That's the question. And the truth is... no matter what the asnwer is... I'm not ready for the answer.

He is so amazing though.

• He is faithful as a Latter Day Saint
• I know he would never cheat on me
• He thinks I'm the most beautiful woman in the world
• He rubs my feet and shoulders when I dont' even ask him....
• He wants to touch me at all times.... If we aren't touching in some way... he moves in closer
• You know in Twilight how people say no one would just watch her sleep.... he does that....
• He honestly thinks I'm the most beautiful person in the world.....

..... But do I love him? Or do I love what he does? Do I love his attention or him?

I DON'T KNOW. WHAT IS LOVE ANYWAY.....