Dwight and Jim's mints and of course BOY DRAMA

School
I've been having the hardest time concentrating on school recently. I however went to one of the classes that I hate... (because I don't find the teacher credible) and was reminded how much I like Psychology. The problem is I wouldn't be able to listen to individuals saying horrible things concerning their lives... and I don't want to be a teacher.

Today we were lectured on Classical Conditioning. It's amazing the things that I remember that I'm interested in. Once she started talking I started thinking how horrible I am going to be when I get a boyfriend. I am going to use him as a guine pig for tons of stuff.... lol. Classical Conditioning... if you have ever scene "The Office" (I have only scene a few of the episodes) there is one where Jim (I believe that's his name) trains Dwight to salivatate... for a computer sound. It is actually quite brilliant. While I watched it I was trying to remember the exact definition. So ahhaha! Now I know.

I'm starting to consider changing my major. It's a frustrating process. How is one to really know what they should do for the rest of their lives.

Boys (of course I must talk about boys... remember I'm boy crazy)

Will: attractive african american boy

Will is a cute african american boy who I find very attractive (Yes I associated his new identity with Will Smith.... he he. How delicious). We flirt in texting but he seems to only want to text me. So I have decided I must be his "booty text". You know when you are bored and have nothing else to do... so you decide to text that person you think likes you....

I was suppose to hang out with this boy last night but we didn't. He ended up saying he had to write a paper.... So I'm not certain if he was just blowing me off or what. I think he isn't interested in me... because this is like the third time. However... I think I've blown him off as well. It is wierd though because of the whole texting stuff.

For Halloween I acutally told him he should be Will Smith from MIB (Men In Black) (If you didn't know the abbreviation you are docked points... teasing.) Anyway he suggested that it was just because of Will Smith that I liked the movie which is not the case. However I do admit to thinking Will is simply.... yummy. Anyway I ended up saying because he said it must be because he was attractive. And I told him that if he was asking then... yes... he was attractive. Anyway.

Why does he suggest hanging out if we won't? So from now on... I don't think I'm going to allude to us hanging out. I'm over it. Too bad...

Boys are lame.

Chip: who wants to marry me
Chip is still madly in love with me. I told him two nights ago that last night I would be hanging out with a boy and I could tell he was upset. It's not fair! We aren't together I shoudn't be feeling guilty for hanging out or dating other boys or guys.

Roger: my cuddle buddy
Roger is a friend who... we dated but then we moved into the same appartment complex so we stopped dating. Then he moved and now we are in the same area. He tried to kiss me last year but then he got a girlfriend. So now we are supposed "friends." Friends who are affectionate and sometimes cuddle. So a Non commitment cuddle.... Cuddle Buddies.

So at one point during cuddling he tried to kiss me neck... which I stopped. So then everything went back to normal. I keep trying to figure out if I like him or not. I don't think I do... but the sad thing is.... It annoys me that he doesn't like me.


I HAVE A WIERD FIXATION THAT EVERY BOY MUST LIKE ME.....
(it never works....)


This Boy: who doesn't like me anymore (or who never did *sigh*)
I don't get him. Why would a boy take me to Walmart? Just to be nice? Supposedly boys aren't just nice to girls they have a hidden agenda. What is his? Is he just tryign to figure me out?

I sent him that text awhile ago to say I liked him. Does he just want to string me along. He WANTS ME TO LIKE HIM. I don't get it.... Maybe thats it.


I need new prospects.... I thought about using possitive reinforcement or classical conditioning to get more dates. The question is how? I can't reward a boy with a kiss until we start dating..... So what things could a do? Touch..... hmmm....