Passing up making out (twice)...while I'm PMSing (small victory you must agree)

So there is a boy... who I cuddled with and he is suggesting that he wants to date me. I told him that he couldn't kiss me unless he was interested. He started giving me like pecks on the head a little bit ago. Anyway in a moment of weakness (that time of month... honestly if you think that's too much detail... then stop reading. I'm just being honest)

Anyway I was cramping and just wanted to be held... so I cuddled with him and allowed him to get really close. We didn't kiss or anything but he got really really close.... He really thinks he is all that and makes several comments about he's good at what he does. *rolls eyes* Stupid boys. I've decided I can't date him... and I've been thinking he really needs a reality check. He thinks he is so irresistible. Ha ha. He's cute but his cocky personality is too much. And that is saying alot because... I like the cocky guys....

This other boy... who I kissed over the summer. I texted him last night. I was trying to figue out this boys last name that I like (and the boy I texted worked with his sister) [Hopefully that made sense].



Anyway this boy we'll call him Smoe (that I kissed over the summer) was implying that we should hang out.... And he hinted at wanted something more. I really want to make out with someone. Ugg... So he is a theater major and so he has a mustache... I think that was the only thing holding me back. So I didn't go watch a movie like we were going to.

I really really hate mustaches... and I'm really picky when it comes to facial hair. I think the worst thing is I'm considering making out with him... once he shaves. I know... I'm horrible.

Just to get it out of my system... and a small revenge to "this guy" who doesn't like me. Who I still really really like. I'm so pathetic. And why the heck is makign out with someone getting revenge. It isn't... my mind it warped.

And the girl that "this guy" likes. She is of course adorable... really pretty and nice. I ran into the other day. *groan* she says...

after we had been talking for a little bit.....

Her: regular
thought process: italics
Me:bold


I'm so glad we really got to meet... I've been wanting to tell you...

my heart races and I just want her to say... something about "this guy" that... he really likes me..... And then I think she is going to say back away from him. or I'm sorry if you got your heart broken.... (anyway so my mind is spinning)

I've been meaning to tell you I love your style

oh Great... my style. Hmm... what does that mean. She must not know that I dated "this guy"

Oh thanks...

Yeah... we were talking about it the other day
(I saw her and "this guy" at the fireside and they left together...)

What? they were talking about me? Why?????? And who is we? She left the fireside with "this guy" so probably him.... Oh great... he probably said I was a stalker.... No.. or else she wouldn't be talking to me.... Would she?

(she had been rambling on and I hadn't listened...) ... you aren't like the typical cookie cutter Mormon girl.

what the heck does that mean?

Huh? (probably giving her a blank stare)

Yeah you just don't dress like the normal Mormon girl (or something like that... I don't remember the rest of the convo cause I had stopped listening.... I tried but I was too confused as to why they would have been talking about me and my style)

(i think I laughed and then she changed the subject... I was a little too distraught with the whole fact that I was trying to be nice and not jump at her throat and say.... "have you been dating him the whole time? Did you dump him? Was I his rebound and he never even liked me?")


..................
But what the heck? Why would they be talking about me? And what does she mean but what she said about how I dress...... And it's apparent that she doesn't know that I like him. Right? I think so... Ug!

*Sigh* I'm just reading into this too much. They left and I had been close by them pushing in chairs and all that. And they probably said....

someone: I'm surprised that she does that in her dress and all
someone: Yeah I wonder why...
someone: (must have said) I liked her outfit (probably the girl being nice and friendly *gag*)


And that was probably it. So why am I so frustrated? ...Don't ask me....